Saturday, June 7, 2008

And the Doctor Said...

A whole lot of nothing. It wasnt necessarily a bad appointment, just not what I expected. The Doc was more concerned with doing the Post Op and making sure I was healing from the surgery, and I wanted to know all about the Endo and what this all really means. So while he was checking my vitals my husband and i were firing off hundreds of questions about fertility, endo, and the treatment. We got some answers but by in large the statement of the day was, it is hard to answer those questions at this point, Heal first, then we will talk about your options.

The Doc did start me on Lupron, so I guess I have a whole 3 months to think about this, and what is coming next. What is Lupron like? I have heard it is basically Menopause, Yipee! This is going to be a really interesting summer. Definitely not the one I imagined.

I think I needed more from the Doc then I was going to get anyways. I wanted straight forward answers, you are infertile, the endometriosis has ruined your chances of getting pregnant naturally, something. I dont like the grey answers, well, it is going to be hard, you never know, it is hard to say, everyone is different, JUST SAY IT!

I know all those other things are true as well, but I am having a hard time excepting this as my reality, and I truthful shot to the gut would throw me into it. I would have to believe it and accept it. As for now, with all the grey answers I can still pretend that everything is fine, and My baby bump is right around the corner.

9 comments:

sarah said...

Hi. I just came across your blog on the endo IF blogroll and thought I would send you a quick comment. My husband and I have been dealing with my endo for several years. I found out I had it pretty bad back when I was 24. I am now 28 and we are dealing with trying to concive with stage four endo. It has been a real trial. We are currently in our third round of IUI, and if it doesn't take the said we are done and moving into IVF. They only gave IUI a 5-8% chance of working for us because of the endo...but I am not sure how that relates to you because each case is so different.

I did want to tell you I did the Lupron. I was actually on it for six months, and the hot flashes are difficult. I was emotional, but really it was okay. I broke down and sobbed (SOBBED) when a cartoon dog died on TV, and I carried around a little pocket fan, but besides that I was Apretty normal!

Good luck with everything!

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

I wish I could go over and give you a big hug now.

Hope you are feeling better today.

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Hope2morrow said...

I hope you are feeling better today, and I'm thankful you have an outlet to release your emotions!

Mrs Woggie said...

Hello!
I've just found your blog and I identify with what you have written so much. I had my operation for endo last Friday and I am now playing the waiting game. It also seems like we have been trying for the same amount of time, we started in May 07. I'll keep reading and sending you all of my best wishes that your baby bump is not to far away.

Megs said...

Hi. I just found your blog when I was looking in the endo blogroll. I was just diagnosed with endo back in March. My husband and I have been TTC for almost 2 years now. We have just finished our first cycle of IUI with injections. We will be hearing something within the next week and a half.

It's been really hard to deal with, but I do know that every case is different. I have been an emotional rollercoaster for the past year not knowing what is going. I just wanted to wish you luck with everything!

MamaSoon said...

hey girl! found your blog through the endo blogroll. hope you are healing up just fine and ready to get pregnant. It is a bumpy road but when I held my buddy's IVF baby last week (she is stage IV), you know why we are all doing this. Chin up. Cry and celebrate together! Welcome to BLogland!@

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Whitney said...

Hi! I found your blog on the endo blogroll as well. I am also new to the infertility blogging world. I just found out I have endometriosis about 9 months ago. It's good to hear from others with similar problems.